Osama bin Laden dead. Won’t change my life.
For some reason I feel extremely scared right now. Life is difficult. Too difficult. I want to turn back the time and make everything better and easier. I don’t want to suffer anymore. My life is too messed up and so complicated. I wished everything was easy.
I can’t sleep, but I need to because I have an important test tomorrow and I need to talk to a prof… I am scared. There are so many factors in my life that threaten me right now.
- My husbands unemployment
- me working non-stop, 3+ jobs
- me trying to study
- me feeling like a failure
- me not being able to do all the things I want to do
- me not exercising enough
- me getting bigger and bigger
- me not being assertive
- me not being confident
- me not being truly happy
- me worrying all the time
- me trying to make it all right
- me regretting my past
- me wanting to go back to being sick
- me missing treatment
- me wanting to turn back the time
- me not having regrets
- me feeling misunderstood
- me having to justify my life
Life sucks right now.
I need to sleep. I have a test tomorrow. I ate too much over the weekend. I hate myself so much when I am in this mindset…
This sounds like you need major “me time”, TLC, a vacation, your mental and physical health should always come first, even if it’s for a day. I had such a hard time trying to push through my school work when I was feeling similarly stressed, and I ended up failing a lot of classes and now I have withdrawn from college altogether. I hope you do well on your paper and I hope that you can take some time off to feel better.
Stay strong <3