I’m a 25 year old female and I don’t really know what to say at this point.
This blog is supposed to provide me with the opportunity of posting my thoughts on my current life situation. I have had a eating disorder for over 10 years now and I want to portray and show how hard it has been, is and probably will be to live with it.
I want to warn everyone not to ever go as far, because it is the worst and most self-destroying desease I could ever think of. It’s immoral, it’s disgusting, it’s wrong, viscious and it is plain and simple idiotic. Whatsover, I have to cope with it and while I am blaming myself most, I know that there might be other factors to take into account…
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hey girl. Thanks for reaching out on my new blog. I know exactly what you are going through and hope that you are reaching out to seek professional help. I did for the first time last week and I can tell it’s going to help. I’m hopeful and confident that we can both beat this! I know you’re pain am going through similar heartache, despair, disgust and self-hatred as well.
Nice to know there are others… Please reach out to me anytime.
Yeah, I reached out, too. I’m seeing a nutritionist about every other week and a psychologist each week… so I am confident, too, but I wished it was as easy as to switch a light on/off…
thanks for commenting on some of my posts
Hi Grace! It’s EbieGeebie from bulimiahelp. I finally found you on here. lol. I look forward to readin your blogs.
hey! there should be an ABOUT tab on my page. but i’m not sure it really says a whole lot anyways. i can’t really say what point i’m at in my life. i’m still struggling that’s for sure. better than i have been but worse than i have been too. all i know is i’m trying. trying to find some thing that works. trying tofind some sanity to life.
Dear Grace,
Thank you so much for sharing your journey through recovery. Its very inspiring. I’m 26 and I’ve struggled with Bulimia for 15 years. I was in a partial hospital program for the month of August and now continue 3 days a week with an Intensive Outpatient Program. I have spent endless hours searching for blogs/articles, or anything else that will tell me what me what to expect. Or I atleast want to know what somebody else is going through and you have done just that. Right now I’m struggling with the weight gain/bloating/water retention etc. Its painful. I just need some insight from someone who is going through something similiar. Thanks again for the inspiration.
how was the in patient treatment experience?? I am considering it. I just don’t really know what to expect. Have you seen “thin” the documentary? It shocked me, and made me so sad. I talked to a girl who has been in a clinic twice and she said it was the best that ever happened to her.
I am also thinking about the intensive outpatient treatment. How is that?
Please share your experience!!
Thanks for your comment, I am so grateful to be able to inspire some of you – of “us”- out there.
I know soooo so well, how hard it is.
Stay strong!!!!
I would definately recommend treatment. I was in the program from 7am-7pm, 5 days a week. It was so structured I had no time to be alone. It was great for breaking the vicious cycle. And my mother was there to support 100% of the way.
As for IOP, I’m about to finish my last week that is if I go through the weekend behavior free. I’ve had a terrible two days. Its so hard to let go of what I’ve always known. I want to get better but a part of me doesn’t want to let go of the eating disorder. I miss it. And I miss wearing my jeans!!
I think I’ve seen bits a pieces of that documentary. When I was in treatment the thing that hit home for me was learning that a person with bulimia has the same brain activity as an elderly person with dimentia!!!!
I hope you consider going to treatment. I was concerned with the cost but who was I kidding, I was also spending 100′s of dollars on my eating disorder a week!!! I had to get my priorities straight and my health is important. Any treatment is better than none.
Im considering in patient treatment as well….im glad i found someone on here that can talk about their recovery. I live alone and its been a struggle to keep myself going and asking for help.