Today was a very good day in terms of eating and keeping it in…
I had a busy day, too, so that helped.
I am not getting much of the important things done though, but I am trying and I eventually will.
I always have.
The only thing that bothers me is that I could do so much better. For some reason I know that there is a smart person inside of me. And I even think that person is pretty cool and cute and sweet and real… It is just scared to let her out, or may I say she is scared to get out?
She is scared to fail.
She is scared to fail, because she has dreams. High dreams and high expectations on herself.
But yes, I start to understand that failure is a part of life. That things will not always or even most of the time not go the way I want it.
But hey! Isn’t that ok? Isn’t that what challenges us each day?
I just wished I was normal again. I want to enjoy the things I used to like and find new things to indulge in with all my heart.
I want to live life in its fullest!!
Bulimia is the biggest hurdle I have to overcome in order to find myself and if i can beat her I will be able to do anything!
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